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[May. 6th, 2008|02:30 pm] |
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| | my bed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | panda bear - sometimes when it hurts bad enough it feels like this | ] |
i'm finding it really hard to get a job... chasing starbucks is taking too long... today, the manager told me she probably can't hire me till july... i can't wait that long so i went to shop rite, where my mom says i should work, and the manager there always tells me to wait for a call and come back. i go back and she says the same thing. my family blames me for not being able to get one. they say i should work at a gas station, but just cos its a shitty job does that mean they need me more than other places? i dont want to work at a job im gonna hate. i'm already unhappy with things. and being alone and being able to think about things is fine, but theres not much for me to sort out or think about to get me feeling better, so i'd really rather just be with my friends more...
schools gonna be out at the end of the week, but i dont know how great this summers gonna be...i dont have much to look forward too, and im pretty broke without a job. i am looking forward to the band though... that ought to be pretty great... umm...
this is a song
Push aside your cares
Calm your beating heart
Ease your furrowed brow
O God please stay here
the night is windy and dark
God, sit by my side
God, stay through the night
bring her please
please bring her back
I can't but shut my eyes
can't but quicken my pulse
sweat beads on my neck
tears welled in my eyes
bring her please
please bring her back
She began my heart a-beating
She began my mind a-loving
She starts my hands a-feeling
She's as much of me as I am
Bring her back
O please bring her back |
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[May. 28th, 2006|01:25 pm] |
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| | asian kung-fu generation | ] |
so
being in a band is great fun, and i hope that never changes. making music and playing in front of people is awesome and i don't need much more than that. drumming's great. i realized it's one of the only things i can get up and do in front of people and not feel the slightest bit uncomfortable or nervous. it just feels natural and fun.
we recorded some songs at a studio and i left my bass drum pedal there because it's small and hidden for the most part. i haven't gotten it back yet and my parents are threatening to sell the whole drum set because to them i just don't care about it and i'm so irresponsible. i also didn't do so good on my interm so they say they'll take away other privileges, including my car.
recently, hanging out has been fun and working at panera sucks.
and now on this memorial day break, my parents say it is time to mow both yards. |
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